feel like it has been a very eventful week so far. and feel like i've done a lot of things. hmmm... not sure...
well, am at work now with absolutely nothing to do. how often do you get that? not many times can i sit at my comp and type away at my blog without trying to finish it asap.
you see, for the past like 1 year, have been customising our current system to suit the needs and requirements of our parent company so that it can be implemented in july 2005. of course, i couldn't finish it in time and the whole thing was shelved to be implemented in october 2005. and now that the system is 99% done, they realised that there're some licensing problems with our vendors. *sigh* so... now the whole thing's put on hold. put on hold also because the auditors are here...
my big big boss (not my direct boss) then mentioned that his current vendor at his company has written a software that can be bought at like just a few thousand dollars. and if we buy it, licensing would be the least of our problems. my boss and i are of course very unwilling to switch to that system coz it's so basic!!! gosh... we've not looked at the skeleton or design of the system... don't even know if the system can suit the rest of the subsidiaries even after customisation. my boss and i are most afraid of these kind of developments coz it'll be really problematic if the design of the software is not good and most is coded in spaghetti code.
anyway, here's the week so far...
had cell on monday... was a very interesting time. LT brought this personality test thing and it was pretty accurate! and most of us could guess the categories that our friends belonged to and get it right. hahaha. =) quite cool that people can see the way you work and appreciate the strengths, as well as the weaknesses that comes from the strengths. =)
tuesday went for dinner with my family...
tuesday marked the official day where my brother turned 21. hahaa. ie, his birthday la. when i reached home, chanced upon this set of sermon CDs by Ps Benny Ho. tell you, he's so good! the series is about cultivating the spiritual disciplines. has 4 CDs and the first one was on the discipline of silence and solitude. it was so amazing!!! and he was so funny. gonna try to summarize it and type it out on my blog another day when i have more time... and not in my office... haha. will digest that first... then go on to the next CD.
yesterday, met up with 2 of my secondary school friends. was cool. one of them was having some problems with her boyfriend and she was just thinking out loud. am glad was there to listen, though am not sure if i was of any help. but anyways, after i reached home, was thankful once again for this God that found me. many times, i take the good things that happen in my life for granted, thinking that that's the way it should be.
remember how i talked about trusting in God and always feeling that i don't trust in God and that i just know a lot about Him and not know Him?
come to think of it, i think i do trust God... amazing revelation when i was sending the other friend home...
one example is probably the relationship that i share with my bf. i still remember before becoming a christian that i had a lot of fears about being in a relationship. i think i wasn't exactly afraid of guys. i just don't trust them. coz maybe of all the things that i see around me that caused me to be very disappointed in them in general. that's point one, though not the main point. main point is i think that i'm just afraid of intimate, deep relationships... being vulnerable and open... to be who you are just the way you are... afraid maybe in such relationships (even very close friendships), you need to trust... and where love is, trust is... i simply couldn't trust anyone... was too afraid of being hurt... when i became a christian... i think God healed me of past hurts and past experiences. and i think being able to walk in this relationship with my bf is probably a testimony of God's healing work in my life.
ok, i'm not sure how this healing work is linked to the point that i realised that i do trust God. i think i can say that i trust God enough to allow Him entry into my life to do this wonderful work of healing. i think in healing, you need to be vulnerable... and you need to trust in the healer, that he can heal you, to allow him access to those painful areas.
awed....
awed by God's love and God's redeeming work... redeeming work not just to save you from eternal seperation... but redeeming work in your life right now... to restore... restore the things that was once lost to what He has intended them to be... to be who He intended you to be. here i can probably catch a glimpse of what is meant in Psalm 139, where a verse says that we're all fearfully and wonderfully made... and in Jeremiah 1, where God says that He knew us before we were even formed.... can you catch that glimpse?
also, guess what? my cell buddy always shared about this mysterious person that sms-es her verses out of the blue. and now i'm the next target... hmmm... buddy, did you give my number to that person? hehehe. just kidding, know you didn't. =P i sms-ed back... and yeah lor, got no reply. oh well... =)
oh, and am so happy that my buddy is accepted by TCSI!!!! woohoo!!!! all these months of waiting and uncertainty.... now things are rolling again!!!! yay!! praise God!! =D
on the side, did some shopping yesterday too. still haven't gotten a present for my brother. was thinking of a good pair of walking shoes. went to timberland at tampines mall but the one that i wanted no longer had the size i wanted them in. saw another brand merrell... AT says they're ok... hmmm... was also thinking of going to town and getting a pair of campers. think there's another timberland in town too right? will go take a look. any suggetions anyone? =)
bought also a pair of slippers... finally... coz the one i have is dying already... and bought a pair of 3-quarts!! so happy!! if you understand the shopping woes of being lynette, you'll understand why i'm always so happy to be able to buy something =P hahaha!!
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been thinking about C and MY a lot. really do hope and pray that God will be very real in their lives. and that the encounter weekend is not this one-off spiritual high that they experience... and hope that they'll also come to see how much God loves them.
simply ecstatic that C plans to get baptised at the end of august!! hurray!! hurrah!! =)
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so that's how i'm feeling today... thoughtful... meaning full of thoughts... and thank God they're good thoughts. =)
{ Thursday, July 21 }