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wahahaha! yet another quiz from KX's site.

actually, got this result the 2nd time i did it. hahaha. the first time i ran through the quiz i was a geek sheep!! hrm... ok... i'm in the IT line but that doesn't make me very geeky... or am i?? anywaysssss....

sigh... another long break from the last update... there has been so many things happening that i can hardly keep track of them. feel tired... again... or rather, as always... hehe. i think i've really been lagging behind in my walk with God... been so caught up in things that're happening around me...

have been feeling rather confused recently. confused over what i should commit myself to next year... ok, many of you know that i'll be getting married next year... well, other than that commitment, have to figure out how else i should spend my time and in which area i should be growing in. have been habouring rather negative thoughts abt situations and people recently... and i think a big part of why i have these feelings and thoughts is because they're not communicated!! and what happens? they brew...

am pretty challenged to communicate my feelings to the people i love and hold dear... usually when something happens, i'd feel something... but i wouldn't recognise it until it happens a few more times and i realise that something has actually been building up in me. but i guess right now i'm learning how to recognise these thoughts and nip them before they can grow... i tell you, these thoughts can be like weeds in the garden... they sap you and rob you of your nutrients.

keep short accounts. i can't tell myself to keep no accounts yet and express how i feel abt every single that happens and upset me coz i know that sometimes people simply don't mean to upset you. and i should keep short accounts with God too.

sometimes i feel afraid to approach Him... but He says do not fear... for there's no longer any condemnation in Christ... and if we were to confess our sins, He will always be willing to forgive us. all these verses just comes to show how approachable God is... even our sins, He's willing to forgive when we come in repentance what more our feelings... He's ever ready to hear out our thoughts and reach out His hand to comfort and encourage.

later on i realise that, the only person that stops me from going to God is myself... since the way to Him is open, the only person to stop me from moving is myself. it's my pride. pride in telling myself that i will be ok on my own and i can get back on the "right-thinking" track before being able to gain access to God. nothing is further from the truth. like i said... the way to Him is open... and Jesus has opened the way.

why do i have to keep reminding myself of these truths that're so clear... i guess that requires faith... trust... and to believe. well, just trust that His Word is true. and it all stems down to believing that God only has the best for us when we choose to let Him have His way. guess that's really the heart of the issue... do i really believe that God only has the best for me? do you believe that God only has the best for you?

was reading a book my neil anderson... well, can't really remember the title of the chapter but he mentioned something abt the object of our faith... that is, what we place our faith on. well, the object of our faith is God. i'm sure you all know that. but so often, at least for me, i let the object of my faith be based on circumstances. if the circumstance is good, then God is good. it's so easy to walk by sight rather than by faith isn't it?

well, looks like i've found an area to grow in.... to trust in the unchanging character of God and in the truth of His Word, which is my foundation.

"Let us fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfector of our faith..." Hebrews 12:2 (NIV)

ok... think this whole entry is rather jumbled up in its flow... hope you guys are not too lost. =P