nothing much to update lately....
just ultra bored everyday. only work and go home. can't go out, can't do housework. doctor's instructions: avoid crowd, don't walk around too much, don't carry heavy things.
not to mention i always feel so tired everyday and especially so after dinner. can't focus when i read and all i can indulge in is brainless activities, like watching tv.... sigh....
just ultra bored everyday. only work and go home. can't go out, can't do housework. doctor's instructions: avoid crowd, don't walk around too much, don't carry heavy things.
not to mention i always feel so tired everyday and especially so after dinner. can't focus when i read and all i can indulge in is brainless activities, like watching tv.... sigh....
{ Friday, May 30 }
man... i feel terrible every morning.... exhausted, bloated and nauseated. no matter how early i sleep, it's just not enough. and i can't eat too full or i'll puke. sigh...
last night went with hubby to eat my favourite oasis taiwan porridge. they re-located to toa payoh and that was the first time we ate there, not to mention it was our fourth attempt trying to eat there. all the trouble we went to...
anyway, the food wasn't as good as when they were in kallang. sad... it was my favourite last time... after you finish eating, you'd wish you had space for more and would crave for it the next time. but i had no such feeling. so disappointing.
i also told hubby how i wished i could feel hungry properly and feel very very full. nowadays i can't eat till i'm very full. i can only fill myself up to "just enough" otherwise i'd be puking everything i ate. and i don't feel hungry. i'd just be like "oh, i think it's time for some biscuits" and after i take the first bit then i know i'm hungry... or worse, sometimes i start to get gastric pains.. then i know that my stomach's empty.
so all you people out there, it's not easy being preggie. you'll feel horrible physically... but in your mind, when you think of the little life growing, it's so exciting. so you should all be thankful to your mum! haha.
i'm so sleepy now... can't stay up past 10.30pm at night. those are good days. some days i concuss by 8pm.
it's a drag to be working. coz i feel so tired.
oh well......
last night went with hubby to eat my favourite oasis taiwan porridge. they re-located to toa payoh and that was the first time we ate there, not to mention it was our fourth attempt trying to eat there. all the trouble we went to...
anyway, the food wasn't as good as when they were in kallang. sad... it was my favourite last time... after you finish eating, you'd wish you had space for more and would crave for it the next time. but i had no such feeling. so disappointing.
i also told hubby how i wished i could feel hungry properly and feel very very full. nowadays i can't eat till i'm very full. i can only fill myself up to "just enough" otherwise i'd be puking everything i ate. and i don't feel hungry. i'd just be like "oh, i think it's time for some biscuits" and after i take the first bit then i know i'm hungry... or worse, sometimes i start to get gastric pains.. then i know that my stomach's empty.
so all you people out there, it's not easy being preggie. you'll feel horrible physically... but in your mind, when you think of the little life growing, it's so exciting. so you should all be thankful to your mum! haha.
i'm so sleepy now... can't stay up past 10.30pm at night. those are good days. some days i concuss by 8pm.
it's a drag to be working. coz i feel so tired.
oh well......
{ Wednesday, May 28 }
Counting Down.....
{ Monday, May 26 }
Grounded.
ahem.. i have something to announce...
i'm expecting!!
i think most of you already know the news but some are still in the dark. =) as of today i am 6 weeks pregnant. joy...... and i'm grounded by my gynae.. i no longer need to fly to vietnam. weeeee!!! bliss......
it's really a miracle how God blessed us with this child. there is a mighty testimony behind it.
as some of you know, at the beginning of the year, i went through an operation to remove a cyst. of course, after such operations, fears of whether or not i'll be able to conceive set in. and worse, the doctor also said that i had a condition called endometriosis. it's a fairly common condition but that also means that it lessened the chances of me getting pregnant.
so as what i doctor would do, he recommended treatment. hubby was not too comfortable with the form of treatment so we discussed and told the doctor to give us 6 months to try out for a baby.
as months went by, disappointment started to set in. many lessons were learnt, about trusting God, and God making everything beautiful in His time.. that He was ultimately in control and His timing was perfect. so we tried, we prayed... i was also worrying about the community service (QQS) trip in july which i was leading.. i was thinking, if i got pregnant, how'd i be able to go? but i came to a point of utter surrender.. where i told God, it's up to you.. if i have, i have, if i don't i don't. if i have, i praise you, love you and serve you. if i don't have, i'll still praise you, love you and serve you.
jan... feb... mar... apr... may...
then i had an inkling. and at the same time i received an email from the organiser of QQS to say that it might be postponed due to the olympics happening in china. so i told God... if it is confirmed postponed, i'll do a home test.
it was announced.. QQS is postponed to 2009.
i did the test. it was positive.
then, my heart fluttered! it was a sunday i remember... and a church friend adviced me to go to my gynae on monday. but i was pretty stressed out because i have an appointment on monday during work hours. my company was celebrating its 50th anniversary and i was chosen to be one of 5 to be singing on the gala dinner night. monday was the recording session (so that i only have to lip sing on the actual day).
feeling disappointed that i can't see the doctor immediately, i was ready to call the clinic on monday to make an appointment for tuesday.
did i say God was in control?
on sunday night, a colleague (also a cousin) sms-ed me to tell me that the guy helping us out at the studio was not feeling well! i don't know how but it happened and the recording is going to be postponed to tuesday! ha! now, i can see the doctor on monday.
i did. he confirmed the pregnancy. hubby and i were ecstatic.
you see, the thing with humans is this. when you don't have you worry you won't have. when you have, you worry that you will lose it.
if some of you are familiar with the topic of pregnancy, the first trimester is the most "dangerous" period because it's high risk period for miscarriage. so i feared.. and became afraid to announce the news.
during the period of trying, i remember that we have to live by faith and have faith. so i asked God to assure me.
i was going to meet my pri school friends in the city area... and i asked God to show me 5 obviously pregnant women. i would take that as a sign of assurance that the pregnancy would be smooth and i would carry the baby to full term.
i saw 5 obviously pregnant women, the 5th appearing only just before i was abt the get onto my friend's car as she was giving me a lift home.
isn't this miraculous?
you could say it's coincidence. but i believe it was God. i can turn back now and say God is good and i'm happy i had faith and hoped.
you know, during the months of trying... i can keep saying to myself "God is good, God is good". i couldn't believe it at first. how can a good God not bless me with what i want? but God is not a vending machine. neither is he a God who is only concerned abt how He is going to bless us. He is a God who is concerned on how we lived our lives, and how we draw nearer to Him in that process.
when good things happen, it is easy to say, God is good. what if you are in bad times... do you still hope? do you still believe God is good?
i think here lies a lesson that i would probably remember for life. to know that God is good, and He is the same yesterday, today and forever (Heb 13:8)
have i told you what the name of my baby would be?
if a girl, hannah. if a boy, ethan.
hannah means grace, favour. ethan means strong, firm. hannah was the mother of prophet samuel. she also had problems conceiving and she prayed, and hoped, and believed and she received. ethan was a servant in king david's courts. he was also the author of psalm 89.
did i tell you that hubby and i are also praying for twins? when i went to see the doctor, the doctor still couldn't see anything in the womb... coz it's still too early and everything was still a clump of microscopic cells. my next visit in june, i'd be able to see some dots through the ultrasound.
i'm so excited! i can't wait for june to come.. so that i can see my precious baby on the screen.
please continue to keep me in prayer... i'd really appreciate it.
to God be the glory
i'm expecting!!
i think most of you already know the news but some are still in the dark. =) as of today i am 6 weeks pregnant. joy...... and i'm grounded by my gynae.. i no longer need to fly to vietnam. weeeee!!! bliss......
it's really a miracle how God blessed us with this child. there is a mighty testimony behind it.
as some of you know, at the beginning of the year, i went through an operation to remove a cyst. of course, after such operations, fears of whether or not i'll be able to conceive set in. and worse, the doctor also said that i had a condition called endometriosis. it's a fairly common condition but that also means that it lessened the chances of me getting pregnant.
so as what i doctor would do, he recommended treatment. hubby was not too comfortable with the form of treatment so we discussed and told the doctor to give us 6 months to try out for a baby.
as months went by, disappointment started to set in. many lessons were learnt, about trusting God, and God making everything beautiful in His time.. that He was ultimately in control and His timing was perfect. so we tried, we prayed... i was also worrying about the community service (QQS) trip in july which i was leading.. i was thinking, if i got pregnant, how'd i be able to go? but i came to a point of utter surrender.. where i told God, it's up to you.. if i have, i have, if i don't i don't. if i have, i praise you, love you and serve you. if i don't have, i'll still praise you, love you and serve you.
jan... feb... mar... apr... may...
then i had an inkling. and at the same time i received an email from the organiser of QQS to say that it might be postponed due to the olympics happening in china. so i told God... if it is confirmed postponed, i'll do a home test.
it was announced.. QQS is postponed to 2009.
i did the test. it was positive.
then, my heart fluttered! it was a sunday i remember... and a church friend adviced me to go to my gynae on monday. but i was pretty stressed out because i have an appointment on monday during work hours. my company was celebrating its 50th anniversary and i was chosen to be one of 5 to be singing on the gala dinner night. monday was the recording session (so that i only have to lip sing on the actual day).
feeling disappointed that i can't see the doctor immediately, i was ready to call the clinic on monday to make an appointment for tuesday.
did i say God was in control?
on sunday night, a colleague (also a cousin) sms-ed me to tell me that the guy helping us out at the studio was not feeling well! i don't know how but it happened and the recording is going to be postponed to tuesday! ha! now, i can see the doctor on monday.
i did. he confirmed the pregnancy. hubby and i were ecstatic.
you see, the thing with humans is this. when you don't have you worry you won't have. when you have, you worry that you will lose it.
if some of you are familiar with the topic of pregnancy, the first trimester is the most "dangerous" period because it's high risk period for miscarriage. so i feared.. and became afraid to announce the news.
during the period of trying, i remember that we have to live by faith and have faith. so i asked God to assure me.
i was going to meet my pri school friends in the city area... and i asked God to show me 5 obviously pregnant women. i would take that as a sign of assurance that the pregnancy would be smooth and i would carry the baby to full term.
i saw 5 obviously pregnant women, the 5th appearing only just before i was abt the get onto my friend's car as she was giving me a lift home.
isn't this miraculous?
you could say it's coincidence. but i believe it was God. i can turn back now and say God is good and i'm happy i had faith and hoped.
you know, during the months of trying... i can keep saying to myself "God is good, God is good". i couldn't believe it at first. how can a good God not bless me with what i want? but God is not a vending machine. neither is he a God who is only concerned abt how He is going to bless us. He is a God who is concerned on how we lived our lives, and how we draw nearer to Him in that process.
when good things happen, it is easy to say, God is good. what if you are in bad times... do you still hope? do you still believe God is good?
i think here lies a lesson that i would probably remember for life. to know that God is good, and He is the same yesterday, today and forever (Heb 13:8)
have i told you what the name of my baby would be?
if a girl, hannah. if a boy, ethan.
hannah means grace, favour. ethan means strong, firm. hannah was the mother of prophet samuel. she also had problems conceiving and she prayed, and hoped, and believed and she received. ethan was a servant in king david's courts. he was also the author of psalm 89.
did i tell you that hubby and i are also praying for twins? when i went to see the doctor, the doctor still couldn't see anything in the womb... coz it's still too early and everything was still a clump of microscopic cells. my next visit in june, i'd be able to see some dots through the ultrasound.
i'm so excited! i can't wait for june to come.. so that i can see my precious baby on the screen.
please continue to keep me in prayer... i'd really appreciate it.
to God be the glory
{ Friday, May 23 }
Boohoo.
boohoo..... facebook is blocked.....
no more relax sessions for a few minutes at work...
no more relax sessions for a few minutes at work...
{ Wednesday, May 21 }
ok... yet another long time without a post....
not in a clear mind now to be typing my posts.. but here goes anyway...
may 10th was tommy tenny seminar. he wrote the all famous God-chasers and God-catchers. i'm always excited when speakers like him come to speak to us. it's different from the usual sunday sermons and i'm really enriched.
he spoke about hunger first... did you know that hunger is valuable? in our world's term, nobody likes to be hungry... everyone likes to be full.. which is true. i like to be full. but to be able to be filled to fullness, we must be first, hungry. (i think all this hungry and full thing could make a good philo topic for desiree chew) the more hungry you are, the more you can be filled. if your life is already filled up, there's nothing else God is able to pour into your life. which leads me to think abt the word contentment.
we learn that we have to be content with what we have. but how does contentment exist with hunger? cheem huh? i need to think a little more abt that.
next was abt worship... pretty cheem.. and sunday as well.. the purpose of the worshippers and worship is very important. the worshippers stand in the gap for God's mercy to pass through and filtering off God's judgement. and on sunday he spoke abt how worship defines your destiny.
the last segment on saturday was also pretty good.. it's the story of mary and martha. he spoke abt balance in our relationship with God... recognising the season and reacting in accordance. our walk shouldn't be all sit back and relax.. and it also shouldn't be chiong all the way... balance is key.
then came sunday, mothers' day.. bought my mum a diamond bracelet.. but sadly it's too small for her.. so sad....
and it was my dad's birthday as well!! hahaha. it happens every year. mothers' day and my dad's birthday would always be a few days away, if not on the same day.
met my primary school friends last friday... haha.. can you imagine?? we've been friends for more than twenty years!!! hahahaa. had a great time catching up... =)
then hubby came back from reservist on saturday.. the dreaded reservist... another one a half weeks without him at home on the weekdays.. what am i gonna do????
oh well.. no appointments for me this week except dinner with my parents. phew.... rare to get a week off like that. weeeee!! good week to be catching up with God...
ok.. that ends my blabberings... more news to come...
not in a clear mind now to be typing my posts.. but here goes anyway...
may 10th was tommy tenny seminar. he wrote the all famous God-chasers and God-catchers. i'm always excited when speakers like him come to speak to us. it's different from the usual sunday sermons and i'm really enriched.
he spoke about hunger first... did you know that hunger is valuable? in our world's term, nobody likes to be hungry... everyone likes to be full.. which is true. i like to be full. but to be able to be filled to fullness, we must be first, hungry. (i think all this hungry and full thing could make a good philo topic for desiree chew) the more hungry you are, the more you can be filled. if your life is already filled up, there's nothing else God is able to pour into your life. which leads me to think abt the word contentment.
we learn that we have to be content with what we have. but how does contentment exist with hunger? cheem huh? i need to think a little more abt that.
next was abt worship... pretty cheem.. and sunday as well.. the purpose of the worshippers and worship is very important. the worshippers stand in the gap for God's mercy to pass through and filtering off God's judgement. and on sunday he spoke abt how worship defines your destiny.
the last segment on saturday was also pretty good.. it's the story of mary and martha. he spoke abt balance in our relationship with God... recognising the season and reacting in accordance. our walk shouldn't be all sit back and relax.. and it also shouldn't be chiong all the way... balance is key.
then came sunday, mothers' day.. bought my mum a diamond bracelet.. but sadly it's too small for her.. so sad....
and it was my dad's birthday as well!! hahaha. it happens every year. mothers' day and my dad's birthday would always be a few days away, if not on the same day.
met my primary school friends last friday... haha.. can you imagine?? we've been friends for more than twenty years!!! hahahaa. had a great time catching up... =)
then hubby came back from reservist on saturday.. the dreaded reservist... another one a half weeks without him at home on the weekdays.. what am i gonna do????
oh well.. no appointments for me this week except dinner with my parents. phew.... rare to get a week off like that. weeeee!! good week to be catching up with God...
ok.. that ends my blabberings... more news to come...
{ Tuesday, May 20 }
Baptism III.
more pictures...
{ Friday, May 9 }
Down down down.
feeling very down abt my job. feel that i'm not cut out to be doing what i'm doing. feel like quitting.
but i don't know what i should do. i don't want to run away either. i'm just so sick of things here. what should i do? can someone tell me?
more commitments are coming soon. feel trapped. don't like that feeling of being trapped.
wait a while longer some say... get your masters first some say... sigh... i'm not sure if i blew that chance.
life is just so difficult at times...
but i don't know what i should do. i don't want to run away either. i'm just so sick of things here. what should i do? can someone tell me?
more commitments are coming soon. feel trapped. don't like that feeling of being trapped.
wait a while longer some say... get your masters first some say... sigh... i'm not sure if i blew that chance.
life is just so difficult at times...
{ Wednesday, May 7 }
Life is like a flower.
just received news that one of my friends passed away... she has been battling with cancer since last year.. she's only my age. i thought she went through a successful chemotheraphy... sadly, that couldn't save her.
reminds me of 2 other friends of mine who passed away before they reached their twenties... one from sudden cardiac arrest while playing sport, the other from an accident.
life is really so fragile. you have it now, but you may not have it tomorrow. true that life brings with it many situations that makes you wish you never had life, but still, life is precious.
i watched a movie on hbo last night called "last holiday", starring queen latifah (ooo i love her). she was in love, had a job, serves in church and she later found out that she had a terminal illness. she quit her job, cashed in her chips and went in on a expensive holiday. she lived life there with courage and love. of course later she found out she was misdiagnosed. predictable plot, nonetheless brings about thoughts about life.
these events makes me think how i should be living my life and i have to say that most times i take life for granted. sometimes i live life in fear instead of faith. sometimes i live life proudly instead of lovingly.
some say, live life as if it's the last. i say, live life without regrets.
no point dying, going to heaven, meeting God and tell Him "if i knew heaven really existed, i would have lived my life differently."
it'll be too late then. don't wait till it's too late. start now
you reap what you sow. if you sow the things of the spirit, you will reap eternity. if you sow the things of the flesh, you will reap destruction.
life is like a flower. it blooms and the world enjoys its beauty today. but it may also be gone tomorrow like the wind.
sow wisely. live freely.
reminds me of 2 other friends of mine who passed away before they reached their twenties... one from sudden cardiac arrest while playing sport, the other from an accident.
life is really so fragile. you have it now, but you may not have it tomorrow. true that life brings with it many situations that makes you wish you never had life, but still, life is precious.
i watched a movie on hbo last night called "last holiday", starring queen latifah (ooo i love her). she was in love, had a job, serves in church and she later found out that she had a terminal illness. she quit her job, cashed in her chips and went in on a expensive holiday. she lived life there with courage and love. of course later she found out she was misdiagnosed. predictable plot, nonetheless brings about thoughts about life.
these events makes me think how i should be living my life and i have to say that most times i take life for granted. sometimes i live life in fear instead of faith. sometimes i live life proudly instead of lovingly.
some say, live life as if it's the last. i say, live life without regrets.
no point dying, going to heaven, meeting God and tell Him "if i knew heaven really existed, i would have lived my life differently."
it'll be too late then. don't wait till it's too late. start now
you reap what you sow. if you sow the things of the spirit, you will reap eternity. if you sow the things of the flesh, you will reap destruction.
life is like a flower. it blooms and the world enjoys its beauty today. but it may also be gone tomorrow like the wind.
sow wisely. live freely.
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Baptism II.
ah ha!!!! finally managed to upload the baptism photos. =)
5 of my girls got baptised on 25th april 2008. that's like their spiritual birthday =D so cool. and it was my first time baptising others. =) i can still remember my own baptism. well, there're more photos to come. still waiting for youthnet to send me pictures we took in the pool.
anyway, here're the exciting photos. i love all of them.
introducing.... the baptism candidates! 
the baptism candidates and a proud me!
uh huh... photo of a beaming me ala jolene
candid shot of our beloved pastor
the gals after the dip
the dipped and me
failed shot of desiree's chipped tooth =Pmy prayer for all of them is that as they declared their love for the Lord that they'll continue to live in His ways. His love will always be with them and i pray they'll not just know but experience it, and His power and victory.
that's what christianity is all about anyway - a living, experiential journey with a loving God.
for me, it was an affirmation from the Lord. my passion for the youths. i believe in them. they're the next generation. shine brighter!
anyway, just for memory's sake, here's a picture of my baptism.
20th december 2003 - FCBC christmas service
{ Saturday, May 3 }
Mindless Rantings.
weeeee... there was a public holiday yesterday!! was so looking forward to it. just cheap thrill and needed a break from work.
anyway, wednesday i met a dear friend of mine YX for dinner. we went to "the soup spoon". my, the soup is good. i'm hungering for it now. want to go back for more. i had the mushroom soup + half chicken caesar sandwich + iced tea. man... i wanna go for the tokyo chicken soup + caesar salad + iced tea the next time. maybe lunch sometime. yum yum yum. ok.... i'm feeling really hungry now.
then we went shopping and of course, it was me again who ended up with purchases. sigh.... i bought 3 tops and a pair of shoes. the shoes were a bargain. only $19.90! woohoo! haha. cheap thrill again.
and then came the labour day holiday... slept in till about 11... then watched the youtube videos that jolene gave me. hai yooooooo... poor thing la those people. they're abt basketball bloopers. some parts were funny, but some parts i just went "ouch".
when hubby woke up, we went for brunch, visit in-laws... walk around, watched a dvd... uneventful.. but that's the way i like it. =) then went for dinner...
yesterday i think my tummy was on fire the whole day. brunch was fishball noodle dry. my, it was spicy. dinner was bbq stingray and that was mighty spicy too. as some of you know, i'm really a "spice girl" but thanks to hubby, i'm getting better at it as time goes by... even my colleagues are amazed by the progress i'm making.. sweeeeet.
had wanted to watch ironman but didn't have time to do that since we watched a dvd we rented. anyway, heard the review on class 95 for ironman. it was very good. i hope the movie lives up to its review.
did i say i watched the forbidden kingdom last week? it was funny but the plot was terrible. and they were sprouting all those philosophical sentences which makes absolutely no sense!! argh!! exaspperated as i was watching it. so i'd give 3 stars only for that out of 5
next week i'll be in viet.. and hubby's going in for reservist. sigh. time to catching up on my reading. kinda miss that. gonna hang out at starbucks to do that. or maybe the soup spoon. =)
anyway, wednesday i met a dear friend of mine YX for dinner. we went to "the soup spoon". my, the soup is good. i'm hungering for it now. want to go back for more. i had the mushroom soup + half chicken caesar sandwich + iced tea. man... i wanna go for the tokyo chicken soup + caesar salad + iced tea the next time. maybe lunch sometime. yum yum yum. ok.... i'm feeling really hungry now.
then we went shopping and of course, it was me again who ended up with purchases. sigh.... i bought 3 tops and a pair of shoes. the shoes were a bargain. only $19.90! woohoo! haha. cheap thrill again.
and then came the labour day holiday... slept in till about 11... then watched the youtube videos that jolene gave me. hai yooooooo... poor thing la those people. they're abt basketball bloopers. some parts were funny, but some parts i just went "ouch".
when hubby woke up, we went for brunch, visit in-laws... walk around, watched a dvd... uneventful.. but that's the way i like it. =) then went for dinner...
yesterday i think my tummy was on fire the whole day. brunch was fishball noodle dry. my, it was spicy. dinner was bbq stingray and that was mighty spicy too. as some of you know, i'm really a "spice girl" but thanks to hubby, i'm getting better at it as time goes by... even my colleagues are amazed by the progress i'm making.. sweeeeet.
had wanted to watch ironman but didn't have time to do that since we watched a dvd we rented. anyway, heard the review on class 95 for ironman. it was very good. i hope the movie lives up to its review.
did i say i watched the forbidden kingdom last week? it was funny but the plot was terrible. and they were sprouting all those philosophical sentences which makes absolutely no sense!! argh!! exaspperated as i was watching it. so i'd give 3 stars only for that out of 5
next week i'll be in viet.. and hubby's going in for reservist. sigh. time to catching up on my reading. kinda miss that. gonna hang out at starbucks to do that. or maybe the soup spoon. =)
{ Friday, May 2 }