woohoo! went for my doctor's appointment today. my baby's 16 weeks now. if you consider pregnancy to be 10 months and not 9, then baby's 4 months today! doctor's happy with my baby's progress and i saw baby's heart beating again... this goes to show how translucent his/her skin is.. but sadly, its still too small for us to tell its gender... and i gotta say this.. i spent a bomb! today....

was expecting my bill to come up to $200 plus, as usual. but since i'm now in my second trimester and baby's looking good, doctor recommended to me his package for delivery. it's gonna cost me $1,600. that's not that bad i think. this's probably one of the cheaper packages i've heard of so far. my colleague who used to see him 14 years ago had her package priced at $2,000. my 2 other friends seeing other doctors have packages at $1,800 for natural births. so i was thinking, mine's gonna be at gleneagles... so... should be good la huh? anyway, this doctor's got a pretty good reputation.

so the payment is split into 3. i pay $600 this round... right.. there goes my bonus man... which just got credited into my account a few days ago. not just this i gotta pay for. also my income tax, plus some other miscellaneous expenditure that i've been putting off with spending till now. oh well... bonus better than no bonus.

not just the package i gotta pay for today... also a $260 blood test... which the nurse extracted 3 test tubes of blood. man! 3 test tubes! *faints* ok, i'm afraid of needles. i didn't dare look when the nurse was injecting me. then when she was abt halfway done, she asked if i felt giddy. i wonder if she asked to see if i'm still conscious or if it's a standard question from the sudden loss of blood.

sigh.....

well, it's all gonna be worth it. some of you might beg to differ... but really.. what's money? you can earn it back. yes, it's hard work... but given the opportunity to bear and love a life... that's more precious.....

all in all, i give thanks.. for the provision of the bonus from my work... for all these additional spendings. God always provides.... and He's always just in time... and He'll always give enough.

so whenever i have to spend so much, i just gotta tell myself that God provides. and in all circumstances, remember to give thanks.

thank You Jesus.

{ Friday, August 1 }