don't come again another day...

Sheesh.. the haze is making my nose itch and drip... very irritating..
It's also making my throat dry and sore.

Hope the haze goes away soon...

{ Friday, August 7 }

And if I did not make mistakes
And give too brief a thought to heavy questions
And too much time to little matter;

Or if I always knew which road to travel
Where every step would lead me into daylight
And if each face that turned to watch me pass
Was broken by a smile;

Or if whenever I should choose to lay my heart
Bare upon the sun-warmed grass,
It always was returned with tender touches
And carried by a song;

And if my heaviest burden were only to be
A breeze upon my back, and blossom in my hair,
And my brow was never crossed with lines of pain;

If all this endless summer were my lot
And winter's fury never beat me back,
Then I never would have seen the stormy nights
Through which I've struggled, fought and won;

I never would have known the joy of needed comfort given,
Or the essence of a friend.

- Katie Paton

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how true... yet so hard to do.

it's true that life is not a bed of roses and it is in bad times where you grow and know who are true to you and appreciate and be thankful for the goodness that has gone through your life.

yet, it's so hard when we're facing tough times and dry seasons. we hope that we will drift through it and come out of it unscath.

but that's the natural order of things. and as newton has discovered it and written as his 3rd rule, for every force acted on a surface there will be an equal and opposite force acting on it. simply put, you reap what you sow.

it's sad sometimes when i talk to people that they want certain things in their lives but are unwilling to pay the price for it. they want a bigger pay check, but are willing to put in the additional hours. they want to start a big business which will benefit the greater good but are unwilling to start small or even face a setback because of inexperience.

i'd say, it's all pride at work.

so take a step back and consider the good things in every situation you're in. why are you in such a situation?

i believe that in every argument or situation, there's no one party solely at fault. it takes two to tango. if you want your boss to increase your pay, then you'll have to produce the work deserving of it. if you want your parents to set a later curfew, you have to be responsible for observing the one already set. if you want your spouse to meet your needs, you'll also have to meet his/her needs.

so if tough situations come into your life, take a step back, all's not lost, just think abt the times when you were proud, maybe. and take a step back even, to look and appreciate all the goodness that has come into your life before and help offered now. don't reject it. you'll only fail again when you fail to learn the lessons that these situations bring. and if you don't learn the lessons, the same things will happen again and you'll begin to wonder why you never get out of such situations.

{ Wednesday, August 5 }

Getting him happy before food


Ah... That first few mouthfuls


Look at the mess!


Ethan in his high chair.
What's the gooey green stuff? - His brocolli


Ethan loves brocolli

{ Friday, July 17 }

thankfully, i won't be updating more woes. rather, i wanna give thanks for the improvements.

here were the woes:

(1) reflux
now...... he's much better. he still throws up milk once in a while but it's much better already. at least he's not refusing his feeds.

(2) teething
now....... he's still teething but i think he has gotten used to the discomfort. no teeth has broken through yet. i hope he'll still be able to handle the discomfort when it comes.

(3) eczema
now....... so much better. definitely lesser dry spots and red spots. now i'm sure that when he scratches, 80% is due to frustration or he's just being plain impatient.

(4) loss of appetite
now....... he has started solids and he kinda likes it. but he gets lazy quite a bit too so he cries when he's seated for too long. his appetite is also better because the reflux has improved.

(5) frustration
now....... he still scratches when he's frustrated but we have sewn some pieces of cloth round the opening of his sleeves so he can't pull them off but we can open them. ha! ingenius. hubby's idea.

(6) left eye not focusing well
now....... we've gone to see the really expensive specialist who gave him the all-clear. but we've to go back to see him in another 6 months.

(7) infant care billing me twice
now....... they finally remembered. they didn't charge me for july.

he's so fun to play with now and he smiles a lot. he really makes me happy.

i guess this is called the joy of parenting? haha.

maybe this is how God feels when He looks at us too... when we're happy, when we smile at Him, He'll feel so happy and so pleased.

thank You, God...

{ Wednesday, July 8 }

is it just me? i feel that ethan is getting cuter everyday. he melts my heart everyday. and somehow, i wish he wouldn't grow up so quickly...

here some of his antics that really tickles me...
- he'd stare at you while you're changing his diaper but his hands are scratching his thigh. he's not supposed to be scratching
- he'd smile when you sing the alphabet song or any other song
- he'd cry into the bed...
- he's pretty lazy... he doesn't like to sit for long, he'd rather lie down
- sometimes he'd sing with you when you sing.. well, at least he'll try to sing..
- he'd tap his feet when he's put on his tummy
- he'd smile at aleka (this little girl on one of the dvds that he watches)
- he snorts when he's excited or when you wipe his face

haha.. words are just so limited... i must really try to record these moments.

and yesterday was really funny... one of our friends was in the car with us and we were talking rather loudly... then suddenly, ethan started to cry. hahahaha. it was either he thought we were scolding one another or he wanted attention.

he's so much more aware of his surroundings now. it's so cute.

will be buying some carrots and broccoli today.. gonna puree it for him to have it mixed into his rice cereal for flavour.

he's growing up so fast!!! already on some solids...

more pictures coming up.

i wonder if that's how our parents feel... like their role is to help us be independant... but they dread the day that happens... well, i don't know. i know some parents wanna have children so that they can pay for their old age. eeks.

for me, i don't expect anything from ethan... just hope that hubby and i would be good parents to teach him how to be a good person and lead a good life.

ethan, grow up well. mummy and daddy love you.

{ Tuesday, July 7 }

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it was our wedding anniversary... but we didn't take leave...

we took leave some days back and that was sort of like a celebration...

then at work today, i regretted not taking leave. i wished we were celebrating our 3rd anniversary... wished we were out somewhere doing romantic things, dating... and i sighed to myself...

to my surprise, hubby turned up to pick me up, as usual... but ethan was already in the car. there were flowers and we zoomed off for a nice dinner. hubby already went home to pack the milk and pram to settle ethan.

that was all i wanted... a nice dinner, just the 2 of us, in an uncrowded restaurant, with ethan taking his nap. a quiet meal with a friend so dear, my partner for life.

and i'll say it again... i love my hubby - just the way you are

{ Thursday, July 2 }

Happy 3rd anniversary to us!

And many more to come... :)

I love my hubby...

{ Wednesday, July 1 }