imagine... less than 2 months left.... i feel so excited! can't wait to see my baby's face. hubby keep telling baby at night "good night ethan, see you soon" hahaha. so cute... on the flip side, i also feel very apprehensive becoming a parent. just last night i told my hubby that he'll be seeing his son soon... *shivers* i still feel like a kid man! may it be that by God's grace that hubby and i will be good parents to our children.

it's so amazing. there's something alive in me! hahahaha. and it is now that i can better understand why the bible says that we are fearfully and wonderfully made. it is wonderful! no matter how you feel abt yourself, you are fearfully and wonderfully made. i'm so filled with awe by God's chosen method to multiply mankind.

i'll be going for another check-up tomoro. no more hbo this time... in gynae's clinic only channel 5. haha.

anyway, on the side, celebrated my birthday (a belated one) with hubby... since he was away in london during my birthday. had the most wonderful lunch and dinner.

also, my brilliant gals gave me a "strawberry cake". hahaha. it was all strawberrys! shiok. how brilliant they are to know i'm nuts abt fruits (except durian... though many claim it's the king og fruits... yucks) pretty creative of them isn't it? i thought they were. =)

yesterday hubby and i went for the housewarming of one of his cell brothers. i think his journey with the Lord has been so amazing and it really encourages me... or rather, the likes of the young and inspiring, who wishes to make it rich one day, somehow.

just a brief background, he has a wonderful wife and 3 kids. they were living in a 5-room hdb, driving a normal car and living what many would call an ordinary life. then he got promoted.... to a very high post in a big company. the company made him drive a BMW... and it's a 7-series. he then went on to buy a piece of land and got people to build a 3-storey house on top of it.

the house was beautiful.

and their sharing, was everything God... because it was! how many times have we heard of young, inspiring professionals, aiming to make their first million by the time they hit 30 (actually, that's all possible nowadays)... but for this couple, the move to this house, promotion and driving a big car was never part of their plans. i'm not saying that they never wished to have such a place to live in, but what i'm saying is through their journey in life, being rich and owning a house has never been the top of their pursuits.

God in fact released a word to them telling them that they would live in a bigger house. well, but you know, being human, we wouldn't want to box God up would we? a bigger house could mean many things, since we're all so familiar that Jesus spoke in parables most of the time. so they were faithful. they prayed... and asked God what He meant. and after a few yrs, they're finally there... in a bigger house, literally.

the dedication of the house was so splendid. we sang, we blessed and we took a "tour" of the house. the attic is so nice! and they dedicated the attic to any inspiring missionaries or any person who needed a place to stay. a house of peace indeed.

God is truly faithful. being there yesterday, looking back at how God has been faithful in my life, really encouraged me. encouraged me to take bigger steps of faith in Him and trusting Him.

i think many of us can look back and give thanks for God's faithfulness and how He has came through and answered our prayers.

then another thought came to me... we humans are always never content... i think we should learn to be... let me list some examples...

hubby and i prayed hard for a child. we finally had one... and sometimes i find myself complaining abt the discomforts of pregnancy...

maybe you're a student, you prayed to get good results and get into a good school... but the environment there wasn't as splendid as you thought it would.

maybe you're working, you got your dream job... but your boss is mega irritating or you're worried now abt the economic crisis and your job security...

maybe you got married to your dream man... but married life is bringing on some tough challenges you've never thought of before...

and then you think to yourself.... is God really there?

what i'm saying is, life goes on. it doesn't mean that once God answers any of our prayers that life is going to be smooth-sailing thereafter. but rather, we should be asking ourselves, after receiving a gift from him, how do we want to journey with Him thereafter? in every new phase, God surfaces different things abt us and how He wants to lead us. how sad it would be if we receive a gift and life stops there....

now, having this house is a dream come true for the couple. the husband really wished that one day his parents could live with him and his family under one roof. God made that possible. at present, when we look at their lives, it's so perfect... but i'm sure it doesn't mean that is the end. there would be challenges... but i know, that no matter what happens from now on, they would look back and remember God's faithfulness... God will bring them through everything.

and so it is with all our lives.

am i thankful for this child? i am! but do i complain? i do... maybe next time when my kid grows older i'd be complaining how abt how hard it is to raise him. but yesterday's session taught me to remember God's faithfulness...

we sang a song... it really is true and touching.. brought tears to my eyes

I Serve a Faithful God
I serve a God who is faithful
He will never fail
When I'm in the desert
He's a river of hope

I serve a God who is faithful
His faithfulness prevails
Lord I put my trust in You

I serve a God, who is faithful and true
I will hide, in the shelter of Your wings
For I find my rest, in Your faithfulness
Yes I serve a faithful God

won't you trust in a faithful God?

{ Thursday, November 27 }