went for my check up last friday. my, it was a mighty long wait at the hospital for all these check-ups. it took up my entire half day off!!! gosh.

1.00pm out of office, had lunch
2.30pm reached hospital radiology department for my last detailed scan
3.40pm scan ended and i went to my gynae's clinic to "check-in" since it's my appt time
4.00pm back at radiology department to wait for report
4.40pm collected report and went back to clinic
5.15pm saw my gynae
5.30pm collected medicine and left the clinic to go home....

sighz... i'm always waiting around... such a waste of time. but no choice i guess. if i went to KK hospital i think it'll be worse! more people = bigger crowd = longer waits. eeks!

anyway, scan showed that my baby's normal... and now at 1.9kg. i'm current 7 months pregnant.

2 more months or 9 more weeks to go!

and now for some other things that i wanna talk abt... i've been thinking for a while abt sin and consequences.

the bible said all have sinned and fallen short of the glory of God. the fact is, all have sinned. and another fact is, every sin has a consequence.

some argue the "grade" of their sin. example, telling white lies is a lesser sin than say, murder. why do people think that way? that there are big sins and small sins. then i realised that people probably feel that telling 100 white lies is less sinful than committing 1 murder is because of the type of consequence that the sin reaps.

imagine being in court. and you told a white lie. in court i think it'll be called contempt in court. if you're guilty of that, you'll probably at worst get some time in jail and a fine. whereas for first degree murder, you'd be sentenced to death.

every sin does reap consequences. what makes you think that telling white lies doesn't? or scolding vulgarities doesn't? or flirting behind your spouse doesn't?

what happens when the relative diagnosed with cancer finds out after 2 yrs that she really has cancer and has only a few months left to live? only to find out that actually her closed ones knew of her illness 2 yrs ago but have chosen to keep it from her. i think i'd be devastated. i could have spent that 2 yrs really to its fullest, or sought treatment... maybe knowing it could have changed my perception of death... or at least prepared me for it. this is a classic example of a harmless white lie that some people argue with me abt. after giving it much thought, i realised that such lies, though done with good intentions, does reap painful consequences.

the number of people doing it around you doesn't make the "little" sins you do right.

so is the bible right to say all have sinned? i would think so. the amount of consequences it causes does not justify the level of evil. a sin is a sin. wrong is wrong.

i think that helped me reconcile the fact that we all need forgiveness from God. He is a holy God. that's why when God asked adam and eve not to eat the fruit from the tree, even that simple act was deemed as unholy. was God being unfair? in our minds, we might think so, because we're comparing the consequences to the "grade" of sin again. but it just showed me how holy our God is.

and it also showed me why God had to die on the cross. to pay the penalty of sin so that we would be redeemed, to have a way out of guilt and a way to healing, a way back to Him.

{ Monday, November 17 }